Birthday!

My birthday is in less than two weeks. 

I am turning twenty.

This is supposed to make me feel like a grown up.

Instead

I feel more childish each day.

I like dancing in my room just as much as I did when I was seven.

I run from my worries like I did when I was twelve.

I blush when a guy talks to me, even more than when I was fifteen.

I jumble up my words when I get flustered like I am still in kindergarten.

I haven't learned much more about math than what I was taught in eight grade.

I still can't spell to save my life, just as I was in third grade.

soooo my question for you...

When will I feel like a grown up? 

Because to me...

Even my face looks the same year after year. 

Anyway, I have a few things on my birthday list that I would like this year, and because putting my Christmas list up on the interweb worked in my favor I am doing it again...
. 

NOT THAT I AM EXPECTING ALL OF THESE THINGS. 

1. A sleeping bag.

2. A Henry David Thoreau book.

3. To come home the weekend after my birthday with the nonboyfriendboyfriend.

4. Chocolate.

5. To have the best of time on my Walk-About this spring.

6. To spend more time with my roommates before I leave.

7. To travel with my besties this summer.

8. To have my sister come and visit me before I leave.

9. A kiss from a very handsome boy. (I've got one in mind.)

10. Some fun arts and crafts pens and paper.

and one for good luck?

11. To pass my math class.

That's it. Happy early birthday to me.